a color study: orange

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i have been in a creative rut recently. i'm trying to get back into photography again after my 2 month-long hiatus in the fall. (remember that documentary i'd been working on?). i've been curating images a lot. i've done a curation in the past of parallel images of people and weird things on the street

but let's start new. 

here's orange. 

on another note, i haven't talked about what's going on in my life lately. it's almost december. thanksgiving is over. fall is (close to) being over. i'm in the midst of senior life and nearing the end of my teenagedom. what???

i just finished my senior yearbook page. 

i just submitted my college applications.

i just turned eighteen. 

i just made a movie. 

i just presented in front of a board of trustees.

i just got my driver's license. heck, i can drive.

i just booked my own flight. 

i just started dancing.

i'm doing all these new things. i feel good. 

dear izzy of 2018, you did good in 2017.

loud quiet, a documentary

it's here: my individual study project to cap the end of the beginning of my senior year of high school. ready?

from a small portion of my process paper (translated to be all lower case, of course):

outside of school, i am an artist, a photographer. for me, photography is a form of self-expression; because of this, it is meaningful to share my art with others. in this age, social media is the obvious medium to share my art. social platforms have given me the opportunity to express myself through photography and writing to others: i often write posts about art and "teenagedom" (here) on my blog, i make short films on my Youtube, and i post a lot of photography on my instagram. but i am conflicted because they have also tempted me into creating art for the sake of self-promotion and "likes" instead of for the purpose of expressing my authentic self.

until ninth grade, i kept my followers in mind when i photographed. i strategically figured out what sort of photographs received more "likes," changing my subjects to fit the trend: photos of hands, marble backgrounds, pictures of food, new york skylines, avocados, and selfies were most popular at the time.

my public prominence grew, and i felt a sense of fulfillment despite the fact that i valued the views of others more than my own.  

my authenticity had gotten overwhelmed by my self-promotion on social media.

to search for purity and honesty in this platform, i wanted to study the purity of self-expression in another medium… architecture; specifically, the work of mexican architect luis barragán.

throughout his career, barragán used inexpensive and simple materials such as wood and brightly colored stucco and focused on the interaction of his work with nature and light. in a time of ostentatious art––of the ornate surrealism of frida kahlo and savador dalí––luis barragán achieved a clarity of vision through plainness.

i wanted to study the art of luis barragán because i was struggling with my own self-expression on social media. the simplicity of his work inspired me to think differently, in a way that valued authenticity through simple rather than elaborate expression.

.   .   .

my satisfaction level for my documentary fluctuated throughout my study. over the past nine weeks, i would estimate that i have spent more than forty accumulated hours on this project, most of which were creating the video itself. thus, i felt unsatisfied and somewhat disappointed with my work around the seventh week of production. i had seen my video so many times that i had lost sight of its significance and weight. only when i began to show it to my friends, my school's faculty, and eventually my school's alumnae, was i reminded of its importance and value. it is somewhat ironic, in light of the message of Loud Quiet, that i needed this satisfaction by other people to realize the worth of my project. however, i did not create this project for the intention to garner that satisfaction. so, i guess that I really have changed after all.

cheers to simplicity.



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the wonder woman
image by actually

image by actually

yayoi kusama is like no other.

she is a woman that instills a sense of wonder through her art. 

she obscures a person's perception of light and space and depth to transport them to a new place of light and space and depth. she reminds me of james turrell in that way a little.

and that fascinates me.  

though, turrell really focuses on your perception of one object or thing – kusama focuses your perception of everything. 

for me her art is fractals: indefinitely detailed but also complex within the greater perspective.

she uses chandeliers to achieve this in her work chandeliers of grief:

Yayoi Kusama Chandelier of Grief, 2016 Installation, Yayoi Kusama 25 May – 30 July 2016 Victoria Miro

Yayoi Kusama Chandelier of Grief, 2016 Installation, Yayoi Kusama 25 May – 30 July 2016 Victoria Miro

My art originates from hallucinations only I can see. I translate the hallucinations and obsessional images that plague me into sculptures and paintings.

for yayoi kusama, everything is dots.

and those dots simplify the world. 

Since my childhood, I have always made works with polka dots. Earth, moon, sun and human beings all represent dots; a single particle among billions.

i thought it was interesting that this perception reminded me of one of the main principles of the novel the swerve by stephen greenblatt. (first of all, you know that i am in full-on senior mode when i reference a summer reading book).

greenblatt says,

Death is nothing to us. When you are dead – when the particles that have been linked together, to create and sustain you, [they] come apart...

everything – people, matter, the things around us – is all made up of the same stuff. for kusama, life is dots, which in an abstract and artistic way, represent atoms.

image by itsnicethat

image by itsnicethat

kusama is my wonder woman.

The most important thing is that the world is facing many crises right now. We’re getting into the worst century in the history of my life. In this kind of era, I will be very happy if everyone can share a common view of human beings for peace in the future and love with the strongest hope. Everyone is an artist. I am going to fight for the world without nuclear bombs, war and terrorism. Let’s fight together. Let’s fight together.

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